There Goes the Fear.

 top/bag- vintage, skirt- Band of Gypsies, boots/shades- ASOS

Last week I completely doubted myself. Everything was happening too fast and my options seemed to be slipping away from my control. This week has turned it all around and now I'm on top of things again.

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For those who follow my twitter, you'd know that I've fully committed to attend San Diego State University this fall!! I'm so excited to be moving to San Diego, and I'm so relieved to know that college is in the bag for me. Now I just need to tackle the next month of high school before the smooth sailing begins.

Hallucinations.

 Anorak- Obey Propaganda, pants- Just USA, shoes- ASOS

Do you believe in hallucinations, silly dreams and imaginations?

Yes, I was quoting Angels and Airwaves.

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I have to commit to a university in the next week, and there's this small part of me that is afraid of not being able to go to college. What if I don't receive any financial aid? What if I flunk? What if I miss the deadline? On the other hand, there's a part of me that kind of wishes not to go to a university. Skip the studies and learn on my own by travelling the world.

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Of course I really want to go to college. I don't want to miss the opportunity to learn in a new environment with new people. I just wonder if I'll be able to pay for my dream school, which has not given me any financial aid so far. In the meantime, I'll fantasize about my other options. Volunteer in Africa, or take a gap year on Semester at Sea.

All The Small Things.

 cardigan- Urban Outfitters, dress- ecote, bag/shoes- Nine West, tights-ASOS

All the small things make the difference.

Do you ever just stop for a moment and think about everything? The people you love? The people you used to love? The last nice thing you did for someone? The details of your life that you normally over look? My schedule for these next few weeks is packed, and it's those small things I try to cling to in order to keep sane.

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It's hard to hold onto so much, and at this point of my changing life I'm learning to let things go. I'm letting go of the things I don't need in my life, and holding dear onto the ones I cannot live without. It's hard to, yet refreshing at the same time. I'm ready to move on to my busy future.

Photos taken by John Mueller